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Thursday, November 7, 2013

Hudson's Thoughts on Codi - WOW

Nov 6, 2013

Hudson, My Love,

You are a very very special child.  You were born under a very special star.  Always remember that. 

Codi died a few weeks ago and it has been difficult on us all.  You cried and you have been trying to process it all.  Your thoughts before you went to bed tonight were so sweet, so honest and so true that I cried!

You have really talked about Codi and tried to process that she isn't coming back.  The other day, you grabbed her picture, started chewing on the wood frame it was in and started to cry.  It was so sad, yet so important!!   It's important to cry when you are sad and it is ok to be sad and let it out. Don't forget that.  Daddy and I watched you with heavy hearts and hugged you tightly. 

Tonight before bed, you were very introspective for a boy of 5.  You talked about Codi.  You asked if Dog heaven was in space or in the sky.  Then, you asked where God lived - space or sky - and if God was dead-- "Where is God?  How is He everywhere and why can't we see Him?"  Then, you explained that one of your classmates did not believe in God and she had said that God was dead.  You couldn't believe that your classmate had said that.  I told you God was everywhere.  

You continued, "If Codi comes back... Wait,  she is never coming back, right?  She had a stomach bug, and I understand mamma, the bad stuff took over the good stuff in her body."  Then, you talked about how she was happy in dog heaven - eating and playing - and we both agreed that we would meet her tonight in our dreams and play.  

BUT THE VERY BEST PART the part that moved me, and I quote:

"I will always be connected to Codi.  There is an invisible line from my heart to her in dog heaven.  A line with the heart at the end of it and the line cannot break because love never dies."

WOW.  You are so profound.  You made me introspective.  I thought of my father.  I sure love you sweet boy.  You have a beautiful heart Hudson.  It's deep and soulful.  

xo Rhondi 

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

John Henry Loves Jackie!

I wuv you Jackie!  You take good care of me when mommy is gone and I know how much you love me.

Love, John Henry 

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Waiting for My Brother to Get Out of School


Sept 2013

Henry is 13 months.  We go pick up Hudson from kindergarten everyday.  Henry loves it and it's just the sweetest.  These are the days that will last forever in my heart.  I say "Where is Hudson's window?"  Henry runs up and bangs on the window and sometimes screams.  Hudson gets so excited and waves and Henry gets so excited.  Then,  Henry runs up to Hudson when he walks out.  Hudson,  Henry may forget these precious moments, but you will remember them because you are 5 and these will be sweet memories. It's pure love.  One day you didn't see Henry and you said, "Where was John Henry?  I didn't see him in the window."  Another day, Henry screamed really loud and I said I moved him away because he was so loud and Hudson said, "It's ok everyone loves it.  They all know I have the cutest little brother."

Brothers forever.

I love you my sweet baby boys.

Mamma




Thursday, September 12, 2013

A Look Back... Hudson the Guitarist


Hudson,  

You were 2 here.  Look at you holding that guitar!  You held it properly at 2!   Amazing.  You were so natural and still are.  We jammed out everyday for at least 3.5-4 years. I don't know what will happen.  I don't now if you will pursuit music, but I do know its in your soul and I will try my damnest to make sure you learn at least one instrument.  You will thank me later.  I wish my parents made me learn an instrument- It's a great gift!  I was sure at one time you were gonna be a music guy, but you never know with you.  You will choose what you want and we will support whatever you choose.  I just hope music will always have a special place with you. 

Music is in my soul - always has been.

I love you, Mamma

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Biking Around Tod's Point Beach

Sept 8, 2013

We got a trailer for the back of my bike and now we can all take family bike rides.  Hudson was so excited!  He said "we can all ride together!"  We rode around Tod's Point.  It was a beautiful day!

Xxoo Mamma


Playing Dress Up With My Brother!

Sept 10, 2013

Arghh matey!  Precious Henry!


Beautiful Kennedy

Sept 9, 2013 


I remember when you were just a baby girl and now you look so big.  I love you sweet Kennedy.

xxoo