Hudson's Thoughts on Codi - WOW

Nov 6, 2013

Hudson, My Love,

You are a very very special child.  You were born under a very special star.  Always remember that. 

Codi died a few weeks ago and it has been difficult on us all.  You cried and you have been trying to process it all.  Your thoughts before you went to bed tonight were so sweet, so honest and so true that I cried!

You have really talked about Codi and tried to process that she isn't coming back.  The other day, you grabbed her picture, started chewing on the wood frame it was in and started to cry.  It was so sad, yet so important!!   It's important to cry when you are sad and it is ok to be sad and let it out. Don't forget that.  Daddy and I watched you with heavy hearts and hugged you tightly. 

Tonight before bed, you were very introspective for a boy of 5.  You talked about Codi.  You asked if Dog heaven was in space or in the sky.  Then, you asked where God lived - space or sky - and if God was dead-- "Where is God?  How is He everywhere and why can't we see Him?"  Then, you explained that one of your classmates did not believe in God and she had said that God was dead.  You couldn't believe that your classmate had said that.  I told you God was everywhere.  

You continued, "If Codi comes back... Wait,  she is never coming back, right?  She had a stomach bug, and I understand mamma, the bad stuff took over the good stuff in her body."  Then, you talked about how she was happy in dog heaven - eating and playing - and we both agreed that we would meet her tonight in our dreams and play.  

BUT THE VERY BEST PART the part that moved me, and I quote:

"I will always be connected to Codi.  There is an invisible line from my heart to her in dog heaven.  A line with the heart at the end of it and the line cannot break because love never dies."

WOW.  You are so profound.  You made me introspective.  I thought of my father.  I sure love you sweet boy.  You have a beautiful heart Hudson.  It's deep and soulful.  

xo Rhondi 

John Henry Loves Jackie!

I wuv you Jackie!  You take good care of me when mommy is gone and I know how much you love me.

Love, John Henry 

Waiting for My Brother to Get Out of School

Sept 2013

Henry is 13 months.  We go pick up Hudson from kindergarten everyday.  Henry loves it and it's just the sweetest.  These are the days that will last forever in my heart.  I say "Where is Hudson's window?"  Henry runs up and bangs on the window and sometimes screams.  Hudson gets so excited and waves and Henry gets so excited.  Then,  Henry runs up to Hudson when he walks out.  Hudson,  Henry may forget these precious moments, but you will remember them because you are 5 and these will be sweet memories. It's pure love.  One day you didn't see Henry and you said, "Where was John Henry?  I didn't see him in the window."  Another day, Henry screamed really loud and I said I moved him away because he was so loud and Hudson said, "It's ok everyone loves it.  They all know I have the cutest little brother."

Brothers forever.

I love you my sweet baby boys.

Mamma

A Look Back... Hudson the Guitarist

Hudson,  

You were 2 here.  Look at you holding that guitar!  You held it properly at 2!   Amazing.  You were so natural and still are.  We jammed out everyday for at least 3.5-4 years. I don't know what will happen.  I don't now if you will pursuit music, but I do know its in your soul and I will try my damnest to make sure you learn at least one instrument.  You will thank me later.  I wish my parents made me learn an instrument- It's a great gift!  I was sure at one time you were gonna be a music guy, but you never know with you.  You will choose what you want and we will support whatever you choose.  I just hope music will always have a special place with you. 

Music is in my soul - always has been.

I love you, Mamma

Biking Around Tod's Point Beach

Sept 8, 2013

We got a trailer for the back of my bike and now we can all take family bike rides.  Hudson was so excited!  He said "we can all ride together!"  We rode around Tod's Point.  It was a beautiful day!

Xxoo Mamma

Playing Dress Up With My Brother!

Sept 10, 2013

Arghh matey!  Precious Henry!

Beautiful Kennedy

Sept 9, 2013 

I remember when you were just a baby girl and now you look so big.  I love you sweet Kennedy.

xxoo 

A Fun Morning at the Beach

Sept 10, 2013

Henry,  we dropped Hudson off at school and headed to the beach.  It was a cloudy day, but you didn't care.  You went right into the water.  You kept pointing at the birds and trying to say bird- I swear!  We had a great morning.  I love you sweet boy!  xxoo. Mamma

Hudson and the Skate Park at 5 Years Old

Henry 13 Months

Henry,

Could you be any cuter?  I want to squeeze you all day!

I love you love. Mamma

I Love My Brother!

Sept 5, 2013

It's moments like this that my heart is so full it could burst!  It's moments like these that I thank God for you two blessings.  Hudson was making Henry laugh and Henry loves it.  Hudson kept saying "It's so fun having a brother."  He also said "John Henry is so much fun."

Oh, it warms a mother's heart.  Always love one another and protect one another.  Blood is forever.  I love you all, Mamma

Fun at the Stamford Nature Center

Sept 5, 2013

We had such a fun time!  JH got pecked my a hen and he cried, poor baby, but other than that, it was a great day!

I love you boys!!!!  You are my heart.  A day with you two is a day in paradise.

xxoo Mamma

John Henry's First Words!

August 17, 2013 

Before I forget,  I want you to know your first words.   You said Dada and Mamma first.  Then, uh oh and now bye bye.  

When you talk,  it's really just the cutest thing!   We are trying to get you to say Hudson, but its not easy.   You want to though. 

Local Fair at St. Catherine's

August 17, 2013

A fun night at the local fair!  Hudson and I rode most of the rides.   Hudson won stuffed animals for Henry-  it was so sweet!  Hudson was a dart champion and probably popped 10-12 balloons at the dart game.  Henry wanted to ride too-  you will be there soon sweet boy.  

Good times!  I love you my loves.   xx Mamma

Hudson, The Entrepreneur with a new Do

August 17, 2013

Today, you wanted to make some money so I made some cookies and you had a stand!  Precious!  You just got your haircut today and its hard for me because I love your hair long.  It hasn't been that short since you were like 12-14 months.  I was kind of freaking but you look so handsome!

Xxoo

Thank You, Steve Jobs

Boys on their I-Pads...

I wonder what they will look like when you all are teens.  The ones you all are using in the pics will be relics.  xx

JH(1) Hudson(2)

Golfing with Daddy at Siwanoy CC

August 15, 2013

Hudson,

You and Daddy had a great golf outing today.  Daddy said you had great old etiquette and a great swing.  You had a blast!  Daddy has been a member of this club for like 20 years and I know how proud he is to take his son!  xx

Luke Bryan At Irving Plaza

July 15, 2013

We had a great date Daddy and Mommy took me to see Luke Bryan tonight at Irving Plaza. It was so much fun!!  We walked from Grand Central to Eataly on 25th and 5th.  This is a great Italian marketplace and restaurant.  Then, we walked through the Flat Iron District to Irving Plaza, which is close to Union Square.  Walking is the best part of NYC- my favorite part.  I've walked all over that city and logged thousands of miles.   

Luke Bryan was fantastic.  He's precious and a great performer.  Hudson, you could sing "Rain Is a Good Thing" when you were barely 3!!  Of course we woke up this morning and you saw the Luke Bryan concert posters and said in an angry voice, "What is this?!"  I told you we went to Luke Bryan and you said, "Oh thanks a lot! You went without me?  You were suppose to take me!"  My baby, totally forgets he is 5.  I told you it was a Mamma and Daddy date and we need grown up time too.  You didn't like that.

"Rain makes corn,  corn makes whiskey. Whiskey makes my baby feel a little frisky..." 

You can see Luke Bryan in stage with his acoustic guitar. 

Hudson The Adventurer

July 2013 Crested Butte, CO

Hudson, the Brave Heart..

This picture says it all. You are a brave young man Hudson.  You jumped off a huge rock into Lake Irwin.  You are physically ahead of most of the five year old boys we know.  You will try a lot.  Please always make smart choices and remember not to worry your Mamma.

I love you my love,  Mamma

Summer Fun at the Beach - Tod's Point

July 2013/August 2013

Connor, Grace, Meredith (top)

Axel, Wrigley, Hudson, Tama (Bottom)