It Doesn't Seem...

November 14, 2011

So, you are in this phase where you play games before night night. Let me explain. We say prayers, lay in bed, kiss and hug, and I say "I love you. Night Night." Right when I leave your room, before I even get to mine, you start, "Mamma, Mamma, Mamma, check on me," until you start crying if I don't come in. I will walk out and immediately before I even get to my room, it starts over. I think this is mostly a game because you don't do this when Annette is babysitting. There is some validity to it. I think you don't want to miss out on anything, I truly think you want to be where Mommy and Daddy are, and sometimes, I don't think you want to be alone. You also don't have Annette dim the lights when she is babysitting, but you make Mamma and Daddy dim the lights and keep them on. Are you manipulating us? Absolutely. Are we letting you? Basically. Why? Because we love you so much and you have us wrapped around you finger most of the time. However, by the 10th "Mamma, check on me, check on me, check on me," Mamma starts to get upset and this is when it usually ends. I have tried different tactics - not speaking after I say night night. Doesn't really work. I have told you that you have to nap after school if you play these games and it takes you too long to go to sleep. Doesn't work. I have told you that you would get a point if you would get in your bed and go to sleep. Doesn't work. You don't get out of your bed, so that's awesome and positive. You just scream my name for 30-45 minutes, sometimes an hour before you go to bed. If I don't come in after about 2-3 of the name calling, you will call "Daddy." Then, he will come in and you will say, "I want Mamma. Send Mamma in."

Tonight, you were screaming "check on me, Mamma, check on me," and I came in there and you said, "You don't want to check on me. It doesn't seem that you want to check on me." It doesn't "seem." You are too much Hudson!!!

I love you with all my heart. All the way to the moon and the outer galaxies.

xoxo

Remember, my love, you are so fortunate to have a comfortable place to lay your head, in a safe home with a Mamma and Daddy who love you. So many kids around this world, do not have any of these things. Cherish the time that you can get into your bed and have that time to yourself where you can unwind, relax, pray, get warm, cuddle with your pillows and get some Z's. One day, you will be older and you will know what I am talking about.