Dreams of My Father...

March 11, 2013

Boys,
This morning I woke up and I remembered that I had a very spiritual dream about my Father, your Gidi. It was wild, because I rarely dream of him. Dreams fade quickly so I'll try to remember what I dreamt. I know I had it in the late morning because Daddy left for work early and I had already woken up. This dream happened after I went back to sleep. I was sad when I woke up because it had to end, but I was happy that I had a visit from my father. I remember laying on a bed face down and all of a sudden I was being hugged hard, and maybe my hand was being squeezed hard. I was so happy my Dad finally came to see me and talk to me after all this time. I think I asked him why he had not come sooner. I asked him if he was in heaven and how was it? He said he was and I remember that he was positive and happy when speaking of heaven. I cannot remember much more, sadly, and I know we had a longer visit. I just remember hugging tight and him being happy and me being so happy to see him and talk to him....

Boys, I wish you could have met your Gidi. He was a helluva guy. A big, boisterous, colorful and big hearted man. You knew when he walked into a room. He would have loved you all so much. I think of him everyday. I wish I could have known him as an adult.

I love you Daddy/Gidi

Father's Day

June 19, 2011

Today we celebrated Father's Day. You helped me make Daddy a card yesterday and get his presents together. This morning, we brought Daddy a cup of coffee in bed. Then, you went and got all his presents. You walked in our room and said, "Happy Father's Day Daddy!!" You say it in the cutest, sweetest voice and I wish you could hear yourself talk at the age of three. Daddy and I always comment on your voice. It's the most precious little baby voice. So, then, you basically opened his presents. You get so excited about surprises and presents! You think they are all for you. We got Daddy a mini Foosball table (for both of you), some beautiful POLO shirts, and Hermes cologne. Daddy was happy. Then, I made you all turkey bacon, wheat pancakes and a fruit bowl. Then, we all went to church. You were so excited that I was going to church with you all. Usually, Daddy takes you and Mamma takes an hour and a half to relax.

We spent the rest of the day mostly relaxing at the home. It was 102 degrees here in Dallas and it's hard to do anything when it's that hot except go to the pool. However, you weren't feeling great so we opted out. We ended up going to a movie, 'Mr. Popper's Penguins', and you were happy as a clam while you ate Skittles and popcorn. The minute you were done, you said, "I'm finished, let's go." It was a cute movie, but just a little too grown up for you. It's funny, you either take to a movie immediately or you don't.

My sweet baby went downhill from there and you fell asleep in the car at 5pm. We put you in our bed and you slept until 6:30. You rarely sleep at 5 like that. I can't remember the last time that happened. You woke up burning up. I gave you some medicine and you took a shower with Daddy. Afterwards, you said, "I don't want to watch TV. Can we just go to bed?" Off to bed you went. I pray my baby wakes up feeling better. I felt so bad for you my baby. I wish I could take your sickness and put it in me!

Daddy and I hung out, drank wine, ate shrimp and played Yahtzee while you napped. We had so much fun! We all had a nice day for Father's Day!

I wish my Daddy, your Gidi, was here to meet you. He would eat you up. He was colorful just like you. I think about him today and I wish I could hug him.

Happy Father's Day to your Daddy, to your Gidi and to your Big John.

xoxo I love you amore mio, Mamma


My precious baby sleeping in our bed. You are an angel here on Earth.




This is one of the POLO shirts we gave Daddy for Father's Day. Daddy looked very handsome in this blue one.

Gidi's Birthday - the 26th

June 26, 2012

Today is a special day for Mamma - always.  Today is my Daddy's birthday and 26 is one of my special numbers because of it.  My Daddy, your Gidi, would be 83 years old today.  Wow!  I wish he were here to see my life and my Hudson and my new baby boy on the way, but I know that he is watching us from above.

I love you, Daddy!

A Look back... Mamma at 4 years of age

Here is Mamma at 4 years of age- 1979/1980.  Who did you think Hudson looks like?  He looks an awful lot like me!!!   He definitely has my red lips.  We got those from my Daddy, your Gidi, who had gorgeous, plump, red lips.  It's hard to look at your child and see who's face he resembles, but I do see his face in mine in this picture.   I cannot wait to see what Baby Boy Squires 2 looks like!!

xoxo Mamma

The Kentucky Derby 2012

May 5, 2012

Today was Kentucky Derby day!  The biggest horse racing day of the year - a very fun day indeed, especially for gambling folks.   Daddy and I had a chance to go, but we are in Connecticut right now looking at houses because we are running out of time!  Our current house house in Dallas has been sublet and the renters will be moving in June 1st.  Crazy times.  Oh, and I am 7 months pregnant!!  We were on a flight home during the race, but Daddy did got online in the air and read a blog that was being updated every second, so, we knew the winner almost in real time.  

Daddy's buddys, Dave Kemmerly and Mark Ferguson were there and sent Daddy this picture.  Uncle Rhoni was sending me his updated bets and he ended up wining 19K - Uncle Rhoni is a big bettor- Mamma comes from a gambling family.  My Daddy, your Gidi, was no stranger to gambling and was a big bettor too, but you will hear those stories later.  

Daddy and I bet online.  I did have the winner, win place or show, but I didn't bet a whole lot because I didn't put down a lot.  This was the first year I haven't actually watched the Derby live on TV in I don't know when.

Mamma use to run into OTB's (Off Track Betting) when I live in NYC and make my bets.  I love to bet on the Derby.  Daddy does too.  I remember one time while living in the city, I wanted to make my bet and I was running our of time.  I was living on the Upper West Side at the time.   I ran to get my cleaning and ran into an OTB after, with my cleaning in one hand.  Here I am in standing in line in this seedy OTB with my cleaning!  This man in another line says to me, "A girl like you in here, you must have a tip."  Ha!

Final results of the Derby 2012 - 'I'll have Another' was the winning horse!

xoxoxo Mamma

My Gidi