Don't Tell Me What I'm Gonna Be...

March 22, 2012

Hudson,
It's already started and you are not even 4 years old! You are one intelligent, independent, strong-willed hardheaded little boy- you're amazing!

So today, I kept singing this one song and a few other songs- pop/hip/hop songs from the radio. I would some linea and you would continue- you totally know the words- its amazing. You got that from your Mamma :). I said "You're going to be a great musician one day.... If you want to be." You said, "Mamma, don't tell me what I'm going to be. I will choose what I want to be when I grow up." Is this a 3 year old or a teenager speaking to me? Yes, my baby said this! You are a leader and a driver and a winner- that's 100% for sure! You are 3 years old! I swear you have always been a little man- you're beyond your years.

....And Hudson, you are a unique star and you can be anything you want to be- anything. I want you to know that it is absolutely your choice whatever you decide to be and do with your life and Daddy and I will always support and love you in whatever you decide to do with your beautiful life. All we want is to build your foundation- for you to know right from wrong and choose right, for you to be humble and kind and for you to help others.... The rest is up to you...

I love you little man, Mamma

Hudson, You Will Always Be my Baby....

January 6, 2012

Hudson, my love, MY BABY,

You are growing up. Tear. You are becoming a little bit older everyday. I still remember when we took you home from the hospital, a mere 7 pounds. Now, you just want to be older, you want to be more independent everyday, and apparently, Mamma kisses you too much.

You are extremely intuitive and sweet Hudson. We were driving in the car and you said, "Mamma, are you sad I am going to be 4?" I said, "In a way baby, because you are becoming a big boy, but you will always be my baby. You reply, "Well, that's not gonna happen." Tear. Tear. Tears.

They say about children - when they are young they step on your toes and when they are old they step on your heart. I know that you will step on Mamma's heart even though you won't be trying - as you grow more independent, more intelligent and need me less.

But that is the beautiful thing about raising a child - watching this baby grow into a person and giving and that little person will grow into a big person and this person will grow wings and fly. I know this and want nothing less for you. I grew wings as a teen and I flew - I flew all over, and it will be beautiful to watch you fly, but sometimes, naturally, I assume it will be heartbreaking as it was for my Mamma.

However, you will always be my baby and I will always always be right here for you. And please Hudson, don't grow up too fast. Being a kid is so much more fun and you have your whole life to be a adult! Kids just don't know this! That's why they are kids. You find out too late how much fun being a kid is.

I love you amore mio, Mamma

I'm Going to Grow up fast Mamma...

August 2, 2011

Hudson,

You told me today, "I'm going to grow up fast Mamma." With that sentence, I wanted to cry. I know how true it is Hudson. I just want to freeze time. You are so precious, so sweet, so pure, so innocent. An that perfect, precious body of yours! Can't we just bronze it so I can always grab that sweet little teaso?

Hudson, nothing could be more true than this quote, "Youth is wasted on the young." Young people have no clue how amazing it is to be young until it is too late. Not until you are 25 and you think, "Oh, wow, I am closer to 30. Dam! I don't want to be 30. I want to be young forever." It's quite fascinating to me that young kids just want to get older and adults just want to be younger. What's up with that?

Please enjoy your youth Hudson. These are the days to hold onto. They will not last forever. You only get to be young once. These days are carefree. You do not have pressing responsibilities. Don't grow up too fast and always stay young at heart: this is the secret to life.

Heck, I will always be 22 at heart. I am 36, but I still feel 22.... such is life.

I love you handsome, Mamma