Hudson's Thoughts on Codi - WOW

Nov 6, 2013

Hudson, My Love,

You are a very very special child.  You were born under a very special star.  Always remember that. 

Codi died a few weeks ago and it has been difficult on us all.  You cried and you have been trying to process it all.  Your thoughts before you went to bed tonight were so sweet, so honest and so true that I cried!

You have really talked about Codi and tried to process that she isn't coming back.  The other day, you grabbed her picture, started chewing on the wood frame it was in and started to cry.  It was so sad, yet so important!!   It's important to cry when you are sad and it is ok to be sad and let it out. Don't forget that.  Daddy and I watched you with heavy hearts and hugged you tightly. 

Tonight before bed, you were very introspective for a boy of 5.  You talked about Codi.  You asked if Dog heaven was in space or in the sky.  Then, you asked where God lived - space or sky - and if God was dead-- "Where is God?  How is He everywhere and why can't we see Him?"  Then, you explained that one of your classmates did not believe in God and she had said that God was dead.  You couldn't believe that your classmate had said that.  I told you God was everywhere.  

You continued, "If Codi comes back... Wait,  she is never coming back, right?  She had a stomach bug, and I understand mamma, the bad stuff took over the good stuff in her body."  Then, you talked about how she was happy in dog heaven - eating and playing - and we both agreed that we would meet her tonight in our dreams and play.  

BUT THE VERY BEST PART the part that moved me, and I quote:

"I will always be connected to Codi.  There is an invisible line from my heart to her in dog heaven.  A line with the heart at the end of it and the line cannot break because love never dies."

WOW.  You are so profound.  You made me introspective.  I thought of my father.  I sure love you sweet boy.  You have a beautiful heart Hudson.  It's deep and soulful.  

xo Rhondi 

Your Baby Brother or Sister!

December 8, 2011

Hudson my love,

Daddy and I received the best news!!! We are so blessed by the good Lord. THANK YOU GOD! He is sending you a baby brother or sister. Today, we heard the baby's heartbeat. It is truly such a miracle. Daddy and I are so happy!!! You are going to be the best big brother ever!!

xoxo my soon to be big brother, Mamma

God Stay in Here With Me...

September 18, 2011

Tonight, when you went to bed, you were saying prayers with Daddy and you said,
"Jesus take care of Mommy and Daddy, God stay in here with me." Such a beautiful and sweet thing to ask for Hudson.

Lately, you have been a bit scared. You tell us there is a monster in your room and we tell you there is no such thing. You yell my name every 5 minutes and say, "Mommy, check on me in 5 minutes. MOMMY! Check on me in 5 minutes!!" You want a light on, so we dim the light to the lowest level. .... My baby love, it is ok to be scared sometimes and I can sympathize more than you will ever understand. However, I truly hope for you that you are not a generally scared person. Your Mommy was scared for so much of her life until I had you, and then, I realized there was nothing to be scared of!! Sure, there will be things that scare you here and there - that's life, but don't be afraid of the dark my love. You are never alone. God and Jesus are always with you and Mommy and Daddy are always close by. I tell you every night, "Mommy is never far away." The dark is a beautiful thing. It is the time of day when the moon comes out and shines over Earth and sends you beautiful dreams and sweet love. The moon is our friend. We talk to him often and you love him very much. How could he come out if there was no darkness?

We love you amore mio! Mommy and Daddy

"I can see, and that is why I can be happy, in what you call the dark, but which to me is golden. I can see a God-made world, not a man made world."
Helen Keller

xoxoxo Hudson