A look back. Pictures from Ella 4/13/11

Ella sent you these sweet pictures in January. The special connection that you two share is so rare. You miss her a lot since her visit her to Dallas. We tried to Facetime them, but you would not talk. You could barely look at the screen. Anni totally gets you, and said, "My sweet boy. He can't even look at us." You just have so much love and passion in your heart. I think it's hard for you to stare that love & passion right in the face when it is taken from you. You want to act like it is not there. Out of sight out of mind. I want you to be able to talk about your feelings, and we work on it all the time. I will say, "You miss Ella, don't you?" You say, "Yes, Mamma." I say, "I know it is hard. I miss her too. It's good to miss someone. It means you have so much love for that person." It's not always easy to express how you feel. In fact, it can be so difficult and easier to shut feelings out, but try not to bottle them up like I have so many times in my life. You just end up exploding! xo Mamma